Only Human
One of the most difficult realizations that I had when I found out I was pregnant for the first time was that my mother would never be able to share this experience with me. She would never be able to share what her pregnancies were like, or give me advice and encouragement. She wouldn’t hold my beautiful baby, or show me all of the little tricks that mothers share with each other. My mother desperately wanted to be a grandmother, and it would have brought her great joy to be with my children. I would have been delighted to watch her with them. That hole will be in my heart forever; I miss her every day. But she was only human.
The other day I heard the angst in my father’s voice because he felt inadequate as my parent. I needed help and advice that only a mother can give. He really wanted to help me, but he just couldn’t. He is the only parent that my sister and I have, and he juggles his time to meet everyone’s needs, but he is unable to do it all. He has been a great dad and “Papa”. The children adore him and cherish the time they have with him. It blesses my heart to watch him with the kids. But he is only human.
When my first baby was born, I found that I couldn’t do everything. I was in despair because I felt utterly alone and incompetent. No one was able to help me. No one had the time to rock my baby or do my dishes. No one was able to quench my thirst for a mother to take care of me while I took care of everyone else. No one really understood what the problem was. But my friends and family are only human.
I am only human.
Who was going to fill that hole? Who was going to quench my thirst? Who was going to save me?
Jesus answered, “Everyone who drinks this water will be thirsty again, but whoever drinks the water I give him will never thirst. Indeed, the water I give him will become in him a spring of water welling up to eternal life.” John 4:13-14John 4:13-14
English: World English Bible - WEB
13 Jesus answered her, “Everyone who drinks of this water will thirst again,
14 but whoever drinks of the water that I will give him will never thirst again; but the water that I will give him will become in him a well of water springing up to eternal life.”
Yes, Jesus is the answer! After discovering again that Jesus was the only one who could save me, I began to pray scripture and ask for healing. I have been dealing with the loss now and moving forward. I am only human, but Jesus is fully human and fully divine. He came to earth to save me. It is His job to save me; no one else can do that for me.
Yes, I am only human.
I do not have a mother of my own here on this earth, but I am a good mother and maybe even a better mother because of it. You must think that I am crazy. I am a better mother because I do not have a mother? It is true. Although there are days that I feel discouraged and desperately want my mom, I know that, in the end, my dependence on God makes me a better parent. God provides what no one else can, and He fills that hole in my heart. God is not a mere human. God is the ultimate parent, and He is mine.
For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. Psalm 139:13-14Psalm 139:13-14
English: World English Bible - WEB
13 For you formed my inmost being.
You knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I will give thanks to you,
For I am fearfully and wonderfully made.
Your works are wonderful.
My soul knows that very well.
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